Scream Of The Butterfly

Sedated and lazy cold skies full of blue
The sun burns forever it reminds me of you
On your dead shore the sand is warm
She hides her tears and quickly lets it die
I will make it through even without you
My sky will be blue
I live tranquilized
Slow motion, liquid universe I'm feeling nowhere
It don't matter where we're goin' cause I already been there
On your dead shore the sand is warm
She hides her tears and quickly lets it die-yeah
Their dying of rabies eating their babies
In fields of dead daisies
I live tranquilized
I'm numb and unfeeling so I just burn and stare at the ceiling
I'm here but so far away 
I see your mouth movin' but can't hear what you
say
And I don't think I'd give a fuck anyway  

the amount they charge to do the bare minumun required to keep you pet alive is dispicable.

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that its not easy,
To be calm when youve found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Why, think of everything youve got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again.
Its always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.
(son-- away away away, I know I have to
Make this decision alone - no)

Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
Its hard, but its harder to ignore it.
If they were right, Id agree, but its them you know not me.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.
(father-- stay stay stay, why must you go and
Make this decision alone? )
 

I'm not trying to cause drama, im just trying to see who my real friends are :(

and i cant tell anyone, anything anymore.


Why are people so low when you argue with them?

On the subject of Pride, can i just say, a thing that is invented just around how other people see you?
No thanks, i'd rather have no pride than be ruled by others opinions.

You know what? I don't need your stupid constant bullshit drama. 
Im going through fucking hell at the moment (NOT something i cause myself to revel in self pity and moan to the nearest ear)  - you as my "sister" should be here for me, not gallivanting off with one of my best friends.
Not that i want you, or need you to be. 
Its just about respect, and apparently it doesnt have any impact on you.
Im so used to this, i actually warn them beforehand now, I told Zippy fine well what would happen, and I've made sure my closest friends here know too. 
"Don't worry, Gary, i'll always be yours are yours alone!"
Pathetic? i need to get some pride? 
I do?
You do!
I'm just so sick of it. Just because you pick the wrong friends all the time and are a shite judge of character doesnt make my friends easy pickings for you.

I dont see how this is fair?

And fuck you lot, no way am i coming back to dunoon to my "family" (a little sister who steals my nice underwear and shites in it, a big sister who loves dama & just uses every single person she ever comes across and then chews whoever possibles ear off about it, a dad who can't stand me unless I'm there for less than 24 hours and a mum who can hardly even remember me - thats not self pity thats the truth, thats how it is)
They're nothing like me and I'm nothing like them and i never, ever, ever want to be. They're not clever, they're happy in mediocre intelligence, happy in mediocre life, happy as pigs rollling about in the drama they cause constantly.
I just chil man, I'm too laid back for this bullshit.
Not to say i can't get angry and even, but i'd prefer just to stay here with my close friends, who never even have an interest in ever meeting my sister, never mind becoming her new best friend for a week so she can fuck everything up for me, once again.
I've got my heroes, and I've got my own mind, and most importantly, i can get my own friends. 
Going to dunoon?
I'd rather go under a truck, thanks. 



in fact....

Do you know what? Fuck all of you.